I can surely relate to thee emptiness you feel, as after spending so much time withmy dad hunting when he passed away a few years back I felt horrible for awhile. Every time I'd see a chickadee land on my arrow I just knew it was him checking in on me and encouraging me to continue the tradition. I know he's in a better place, and someday we'll be together hunting again!!! God Bless you and keep your hunting spirits up:-)))