I don't know about other folks but the process you are experiencing is a common one at least it has been for me.As a result of typically negative experiences you get angry enough at yourself to make sure you you stop doing certain things.
In the heat of the moment it is necessary to fight the urge to compromise or to make justification for the shot you know you shouldn't take.Most all of us have done it,I know I have.It is a hunting maturity of sorts and fortunately for you and for me and for most all of us we are bothered by these things!