Not the reply I thought I was going to give, but here goes.....
Too many people get caught up in what you were.....searching for a reason/cause in life....and never finding it. I'm glad you were one of the ones that found their way (and I'm not saying your groupthink belief was WRONG......just that it wasn't YOURS).
Here I sit....with a dip of Skoal in......having eaten chicken, last night. Lisa also made me a "very light" wild turkey and coke last night.....after a 17 hour workday. So take my ramblings with a grain of salt.
I'm just happy you've nowexperienced what "we" do. Come on in....the water's fine.