Hey man hang in there.I lost my father few years back and really mis him.What i hate most is he really did'nt get to know my son,dad was the type of man who loved the outdoors and got myself and brothers into it it's really tough during hunting season Sure do have a lot of good memories of all us going to the deer camp though.Those of you that have children know what I mean when i say that dad felt more pride when one of boys killed a deer than he ever felt when he killed one .Just make your last days with him count.