Sorry to hear about this Byrd. Sounds like these guys have some good advice. Iam going to be looking at this ame experience some time in the not too distant future. Maybe finding some alternative hobbies that you can do, and some good reads will help you feel more productive, but keep inmind that what youare is not defined by what you do. Your family is not being let down, you need to give yourself a break, and allow yourself to get well.