If you really did know what you were doing was wrong then it's makes the whole mess even worse. Purposely acting against what you know is the correct thing to do and then publically whining when it goes in the toilet makes no sense to me.

How can you say you thought you had a better shot at first when you already stated that you hit him at least 3 inches behind the vitals?

Changing your story only makes you look worse............your writing style and lack of emotional control make me think (and hope) you are a young kid..........I hope you learn from this mess so you can start finding the deer you kill. It's much more enjoyable that way.