Johnny ... aka BigJ12, there is a good chance that you might mature as a hunter along with several others who are at the stage where they must kill Kill KILL!!! Dont sweat it junior, every mature hunter was once at the stage where you are today. There are several good hunters on here.They all grew past it. Dont be one of those that gets stuck there. Keep working on your skills and maturing as a hunter and someday you too will have the will power to let a deer walk that you could have shot.