I'm not sure if I can go along with this. You are only 15. Have you ever killed a big buck? If not, how would you know if it was just as rewarding? I've killed 37 bucks, big and small, they're all rewarding, however, the biggest ones have caused my body to do some involuntary shaking. Both before and after the shot. It is a known fact that bigger horns causes bigger excitement. I've got nothing against big buck contests but I've never entered one. I've shot a few that I know would have won, but I just haven't entered one. Maybe superstitious, if I enter one, that wil be the season that I won't even see one. One last thing, spending the entire season chasing one big buck is about the most fun that I could possibly have.