RE: What in the HE double hockey stick am I doing wrong??!!
Yes, I just replyed back to you. I have the same form of target panic as you do and listed some things to try.
Are you going to try and hunt with a back tension release?
Man do I agree about the blind bale shooting Gibblet. So many people will just not do it, no matter how many times you drill it into there heads. I made my girlfriend do it for two weeks, then let her blank bale shoot for a while, then I let her shoot targets. And this was after a few lessons with a certified instructor. And I'd be willing to bet you shoot better than me even with the back tension release. Like I said, I'm alright, but I'm not that great. My flaws don't stem from my release though and I don't shoot any better or worse with back tension release than I do with a trigger release.
Trying to learn backtension on your own would be pretty difficult, I feel for you mobow.
Paul