we all have the same thing happen at one time or the other. sounds like you did the best you could. Don't give up at this point.
You will always remember that shot and wish you could have done different. that is something you learn from.
you have a grandfather that loves you evry much,we can tell from the way the computer screen lights up when he posts about you.
learn from him and your dad.
welcome to the board,just jump in when you feel the need.

by the way,"You Done Did Good"

I am not a hunter I am a whitetail population reduction specialest

remember keep your back to the sun, your knife sharp, and your powder dry.