RE: please help understand
Hi here from Africa. (Hope my English is good enough to express my feelings, without stepping on any toes)
Words are not capable to explain the “killing” part to a non-hunter.
My wife came from pretty much the same background as you. My “way-of-live” was unknown and cruel to her. It is not my responsibility to change her mindset or make her understand. Se accepted me for what I am and my passions in life. I respect that and she expects the same from me. It’s becoming easier as time goes by. It is possible; believe me. She’s even starting to enjoy the quality and taste of game meat.
I suppose you herd about “buck fever” before. You get unexplainably exited; adrenalin levels goes sky-high it rockets through your body. Your mind goes into overdrive. You become a hunter, like the ones before you. It’s a heritage, its instinctive, a part of me, its bl%$ addictive, it’s me. This does not make me a killer without any feelings; it’s just that I understand it better. If it was against Gods will for us to manage the animals he put on this earth, I would not be hunting. Respect his feelings and he would do the same. You already started by posting this post. Hope everything works out.