It seems to me as though you might be a little depressed at the fact that you are always having to take others and never getting time to yourself. Part of what's great about hunting is going out there and getting some time to relax and collect your thoughts. Not to mention the thrill of actually harvesting an animal. If you are always having to help people out and are never getting any time to yourself then this is probably why you are losing your love for the sport. I think it's great that you go out and help out your family, but you've also got to take some time for yourself. This is true in many aspects of life.