ajg2425,
As has already been said, you have received alot of good
advice from people who are trying to help you. You seem
to be ignoring it. Take some time to get to know
(as in study/read) about firearms, your own in particular.
Take a shooters safety course. Go to a legalshooting range
or safe place with owner permission to practice. Please listen to what the goodand experienced people here are telling you.
The life you save may be your own, but just as important,
it may be someone elses.

PKnTX