I would like to have one but can't afford it or the ammo.

As to ammo, Hornady is coming out with this round on the market with the VMax bullet in it. Would be ideal for defense. Rapid expansion, lot's of energy.

http://www.sidearmor.com has a holster for the gun, they make top notch holsters. http://www.natchezss.com has ammo for it, dies for it and soon to have brass for reloading.