Amen, brother.

The only way you're going to get over this problem is to work on your mental discipline. Talk to yourself (mentally of course) when the deer is coming in. Work on a mental checklist, and in your case, remember to tell yourself each time just before you shoot to "keep aiming until you see the arrow hit."

Another thing - I shoot white wraps and white blazers. If I keep aiming until the hit, I have no problem seeing where that arrow hits even with my imperfect vision. This is made easier by the fact that I shoot with both eyes open.

I tried the lighted nocks (Lumenoks), but my 70 pound draw punching against a 500 grain arrow kept breaking them.