I know some guys are just tying to lift your spirits by saying stuff like "get back on the horse and ride" -or- "get a new girlfriend go jump off the deep end" but those aren't really the things you should be concentrating on right now. It's fine to go out with friends and just try to relax but looking for female attention is the last thing you want to do. If you do go looking, you'll definately be "jumping off the deep end". And worse yet, you'll be taking her with you too. Naturally when we get bounced, we easily tend to rebound, but respect yourself and the would be casualty by not acting on clouded judgment.

Not to sound all philosophical but life has to be taken in stride a day at a timesweet or sour. (nothing really philosophical bout that huh?) Life is everchanging and it's change that scares us. Change though, doesn't have to be bad. If a year ago someone told you that today you'd be broken up and feeling like crap would you believe it? Probably not, but it is what it is. On the up side of that, if someone told you that a year from now you'd be happier than you ever were, would you believe it? Probably not, considering the way you're feeling right now. But, that's not to say it can't happen. Remember:Rushing neccessary pain out of your life isn't healthy. Refusing to see future happiness isn't either.

Life is as much a curse as it is a blessing. To live, you must accept both. I don't mean to take your struggle out of focus but just want to briefly share one of mine in the hopes you might be able to take something from it.Three years ago, after a 2 month battle with an Auto Immune Disease,my 10yr old son died in my arms afterwe decided to pull the plug. For a whole year after that, I locked myself up andrefused entry to the living. As ironic as it sounds, in refusing to live I learned to live. 20 hours a day of rationalizing the worthiness of my own existence made me realize that if I continued this way, my family not only suffers the loss of one member but rather two. That's when I decided to put my self-pity aside and rejoin the land of the living. I was 28 and yet a child then. I am 31 and much moreappreciative ofwhat I havenow.

In this life, we are nothing more than blinds leading blinds. If you are ever lost again and need to feel like you're headed in the right direction, we are here to guide you with our toy compasses. Good Luck!

-Heu