Yesterday ..2 nights ago...God somehow imparted a special gift of faith in my heart..I can't explain it but I had a whole lot more faith than I ever had and the Lord let me know it was His faith...
the one " Saved by faith and THAT NOT OF YOURSELF..it's a gift of God."
My wife had a messed up hand..I prayed...she was instantly healed..being serious here..
I arrived at school walking on cloud 44 ..shared Christ ..
Then the kids came into the room.I'm at a new school this year..a fine school but the only job available was a self-contained EH unit..the TOUGH KIDS..I have 7 kids with an adult helper..yes I have the screaming throwing chair kids..
Yesterday was horrible. My para was playing head games and one student was doing his best to keep the class from learning..my super natural faith SEEMED to have disappeared..I was wore out..I beleived the lie of the devil that said.."Where's the love and joy..IF you would have done things differently you would have had a better day."
I was stilled bummed as I woke up. Then the Lord spoke ot my heart..I am the same God of the great faith as well as the God of suffering..As Paul spoke..His grace is sufficent for me..and I know how to abound and be abased..nope...I was just as much in God's will in the suffereing as I was in the abundant faith..I didn't do anything wrong..he;s just as much God in the snake filled swamp as He is on the mountain top..dear saint..don't be foolish like me..just because the feeling of joy isn't there it CERTAINLY does mean that you have messed up or the original JOY was false..It's the same God that willeth in you in both situations..
AND WE KNOW THAT ALLLL THINGS WORK TOGETHER FOR GOOD TO THOSE WHO LOVE GOD AND ARE CALLED ACCORDING TO HIS PURPOSE..
also...a lesson learned..when you need great faith..God is more than willing to impart in you anything that you need..HE LOVES YOU [ -;
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