I was raised catholic until I was 19 and married in the Episcopal Church. Since I have been in the military I have not been to church on a regular basis only going a few times a year. I believe that I made a foolish mistake a year ago by joining a Masonic lodge and my life went down hill from there. My career and work ethic started going in the wrong direction, my father in law who was a decon in the church came down with ALS (lou gherrigs disease) and died rather quickly. It just seemed like everything was going wrong in my life. I havent been back to the lodge since my father inlaws death and they kept insisting that I return but something didn't seem right about it. As I searched the internet I began to find sites that discussed how Freemasonry had hidden agendas and how it was really based on not on the christian god but any god or deity you wish. I quickly realized that this wasn't for me. I am currently receiving letters from the lodge about how I am not fullfilling my obligation and they are really trying hard to guilt trip me into going back. I have renounced freemasonry on a personal level with God and our lord Jesus Christ. I have asked him on several occasions to come back into my heart but I still feel the same inside. I pray each night before I sleep that he will forgive me. Do you all feel that it it is too late for me? I feel that jesus thinks I am a total loser and has given up on me. I see things going on in this world and I know that it wont be long now before his return and I am scared. Even though I asked Jesus to forgive me I still sin quite often with cussing, taking his name in vain and all the typical things that most men do. I guess what i'm trying to ask is if is too late for me? Did me joining this lodge make me a prisoner to evil? I am sorry if anyone in here is in a lodge and I respect you but it just wasn't for me. I would like to hear comments if anyone is willing.
God Bless,
Dennis
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Dennis,
We please God by agreeing and believing with His Word..Put your feelings aside and trust His Word..God loves you according to His Word...If we confess our sins He is faithful and just to forgive ALL our sins and cleanse us from all unrighteousness...I read something very interesting yesterday in my study of Caleb and Joshua//God told the other Jews..paraprasing.."Because you were afraid ..you need to turn back for you won't overcome them."However' because Caleb and Joshua believed against what reason told them..they and they alone were aloud to enter in. God has been speaking to me alot. on "Letting the weak say I am strong." Dennis you need to confess."God loves me" John 3:16 says so..Dennis is strong..God's
Word says so JOel 3:10 ..Dennis is forgiven..1 John 1:9 God's Word says so..If you still doubt..then read the Word...lot's of it..With your mouth my friend speak His Word...not your doubts..
Thank you for your kind words. I know deep in my heart that Jesus is my Lord and that he died on the cross for me and my sins. I will keep asking for forgiveness and ask him to please come back into my heart. I've done bad things in my life and when it is my time to stand before him to account for those sins I hope he will forgive me.
God Bless,
Dennis
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2001 HOYT MT SPORT
59#'S WITH A 30" DRAW
TRU-GLO BRIGHT SIGHT EXTREME WITH LIGHT
SURE SHOT WHISKER BISCUIT (BLACK)
4560 CARBON EXPRESS TERMINATOR ARROWS TIPPED WITH G5 Montec CS 100 grain Broadheads.
No, you absolutely did the right thing by leaving the "free"masons! You are always free and accepted by Christ! Let the dead bury their own dead and follow Jesus!
Brother, you lived a near perfect life compared what I had, thank God for His grace. It's not important where we were, what's important is where we are going!!! You don't have to ask Him twice for forgiveness, He hears you the first time.
Hang out with us, we love the Lord, and enjoy the great outdoors. You can P.M. any of us and time, trust me, there is lots of wisdom on this forum. I wouldn't have hung out here this long if I didn't feel the love and spiritual connection.
It's not important where we were, what's important is where we are going!!!
Great advise!! It's can be a long journey from where we were, to where we are going. Many twists and turns, hills and valleys, but Jesus will never leave nor forsake one of those little ones who trust in him.
My advise is to reach up and put your hand in that nail scared hand, and start walking with him at a pace that you can maintain. Every day is a day that the Lord hath made, rejoice and be glad in it. Follow where he leads, Drink from the waters that he provides, eat from the pasture where he leads you. Prove all things by the scriptures and God will direct your steps.
Feelings are the absolute worst gauge of where we stand with anything, so don't trust them, don't listen to them. Now truth on the other hand, that is something you can stand on.
The truth of the Word says God will forgive those who repent and those who accept Christ into their lives and ask Him to be Savior....AND LORD. That is very important. Having Christ as Savior in the beginning is enough, but He must become LORD of your life.
He becomes Lord, by obeying His commands. Deny yourself, pick up your cross and follow Him. Praise the Lord for your decision. The bad stuff you are feeling is quite likely the enemy (satan) trying to get you to fall back into your old way of life. Give it to the Lord, wash your hands of your sinful lifestyle, and do your best each day to live a life holy and acceptable to God which is your reasonable service.
May God bless your decision and give you strength and you seek His face to accept the joy and peace only He can offer.
I Renounced Freemasonry now what?
