I don't know why I'm sitting here typing(talking)to complete strangers other than the fact that I need to talk to someone and the good peoplein this forum are truly my only outlet right now.First off I am a ministers son,I was raised in the church I KNOW god is real,I know Jesus came and died for our sins out of love.I believe in faith I know faith works heck,I've used it and been healed,I've seen with my own eyes people healed of numerous afflictions.I know the bible is God's word and as such is the truth and nothing but the truth.Now that I've said all that I am asking for prayer for me and my family.
I have felt like since the time I was 10 or 11 that I have been called to do something for the Lord and I have run from it for a long time,heck I'm still running.My girlfriend is really not well from a pacemaker when she was 35 to Fibromyalgia(sp)a chronic pain disease to now she has been diagnosed with Lupis,I don't understand the disease but I know it's bad.The last few years have been1 mistake after another on my part and I am at a point where I can NO LONGER do this I feel like I am losing what little grip I have on sanity I have left.There is stress in my life that I cannot even begin to talk about and folks I and my family need prayer.
I know God will help me but as silly as it sounds I don't know how to ask,that may sound strange but it's the truth as honestly as I can say it.God has watched over me my whole life my mother wasn't even supposed to be able to have kids and she prayed and the Lord gave her me,true story.I am completely lost I feel it and there are things going on that only compound that feeling.I am not whining,rambling yes whining no.I know life is not easy but there has to be a better way than what I'm doing now.I don't know what I'm trying to say other thanHELP ME!Point me at where to start help me to understand or learn to understand how I go about finding the answers.
I do not attend church like I should that is another thing I will have to fix,I have a hard time trusting Pastors,Deacons and such.That all stems from my Fathers mistakes and why he is not a minister any longer suffice it to say it was not godlike at all.Please I'm asking for prayer for myself and my family my real name is Brian and my better halfs name is Susie.I'm sorry I have rambled I really did notmean to I did not say everything I wanted to but I've said enough.
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Life's journey is not to arrive at the grave safely in a well preserved body,but rather to skid in sideways,totally worn out,shouting "Holy crap......What a ride!!"
Brian, You and Susie will be in our prayers. It sounds to me like you have a convicting Spirit all over you. You know what you need to do, where you need to go, and whom you need to seek. Just do it!
I'm fixing to go to prayer meeting in a bit and I will make mention of you and Susie and family.
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Brian you didn't stumble here by accident. I believe God has many things in store for you. Like Bro Mac said, you have a convicting spirit. Meaning God hasn't given up on you. We will all keep you in our prayers.. Don't just go away, hang out with us and let God's wordtouch in you a special way. There isn't one here that hasn't felt pain brother.
welcome Brian, echo all the other posts and there is no way you arrived here by accident,,,
will keep you and the misses in prayer
BTW, i always enjoy your post and feel (from what i have read) you're a great guy, but you feel like something is missing, Brother you are not alone as theremany here that have walked down very similar paths, i was very stubborn, but i can honestly tell you,God handling my life has made life very peaceful, there will still be tough times[&o] but they just make you appreciate the good times that much better, and for me, help me gain more and more understanding in daily life..
again welcome, hang out a while, its a good group
keith
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John 3:16
things are more like right now than they've ever been
It is our attitude at the beginning of a difficult task which, more than anything else, will affect its successful outcome.
William James
Perhaps God has called you to start a true church,one where the mistakes you learned will not be made.
Hurry and heed God's Calling, the time is short Lupus Erythematosus is painfull but it can be managed, I will pray for you and your Girlfriend, Shalom
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The great day of the LORD is near, it is near, and hasteth greatly, even the voice of the day of the LORD: the mighty man shall cry there bitterly. Zephaniah 1:14
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I am sorry you are having such a tough time right now. I also hate it that your girlfriend is so sick. I will include you both in my prayers.
My first impulse is to tell you to pray.... Talk to Our Lord Jesus as a friend. Earnestly get somewhere quiet, and talk to the Lord. You don't have to use special words or pray for any particular length of time, but You do need to pray from your heart. He will hear you, and He will answer your prayers according to His will for your life.
Another thing I feel led to tell you is to fast. Pray about the fast , and ask the Lord to give you His Word on how to fast and how long to fast. Many people go through the motions, but only a small number put their heart into it, honestlyseeking the Lord. Get back into Gods Word ( the bible ) , and give Him His time in your life everyday.
I understand how life pressures can wear you down.... In fact I was on here recently asking for my brothers and sisters in the forum for their prayers in my life. I was a beaten man, due to so many things happening all at once. In myself I could hardly go on each day, but the Lord took my Yolk, and carried the burdens for me. My friends here prayed for me, and I stayed faithful to the Lord, at church and away from church. I kept my face buried in His Word and Prayed a lot each day. Within a week, almost all of my circumstances had been worked out. My sons life was saved, my family was well, and I was overcome with the Love that was shown to me by God. My faith was greatly strengthened in the way all of the bad , suddenly turned to good. God can work in our lives, if we will only give it all to Him and get out of the way. But you must be as faithful to Him as He is for us. He is still attempting to reach you, or to reach someone else through you. Don't be luke warm about Jesus. You say you already know about Him, but do you truely Know Him. Trust in Him, for He is always faithful.
I appreciate the words of encouragement I am really at my wits end.I have to be strong for the family and act like it doesn't bother me but nothing could be further from the truth.I have not led my family like I should and I wonder why haven't I?
I am so confused right now I wonder if I even matter in the grand scheme of things.Confusion is a tool of the enemy I know that but it is what I feel.I do not understand everything that has happened to me in my life,maybe I'm not supposed to.I know that I have made bad decisions I guess we all do but I feel the weight of the world on my shoulders and have for a while and I cannot carry it anymore.
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Life's journey is not to arrive at the grave safely in a well preserved body,but rather to skid in sideways,totally worn out,shouting "Holy crap......What a ride!!"
Brian, I am probably the most un-popuraly poster on here. Just so you know!
Please know I am not putting you down, I would not do that!
Just reading between the Lines I think you may are may not have a Drug or a Drinking problem. You are Vage about your problem and your Age for some reason.
It sounds like your better Half is doing all she can to get better. We will pray for her and you.
Have you been to a Doctor, besides the Great Physian, I believe you must be Physicaly Healed before you can be Spiratually healed. It could be in your Genes are something you are doing, maybe even mentaly (I am not saying you are crazy) Probably there are more here than not that take something for Stress of Life. Brian, I want you to know that I am putting my Heart on the line like you, I believe almost have done.
I believe some of your Familys problems stem from the church. Believing that God is going HEAL, and then it don't happen. Praying till the Spirit makes you out of control. God Talking to them other than tru his word. Seeing Jesus in Visions.
The Truth will set you free. And yes their will still be things to over come in your life!
I don't know why
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