Bro Renfrow, just keep on seeking the Lord. God will use these things to shape and mold us.
At one time folk would have told you that I had it in me to go off the deep end every now and then. Of course I was always in the right but lacked the ability to impress the authorities of my rightiousness.[X(]
Some yrs ago I was sitting at home watching tv in a pair of boxer shorts.It was a sunday afternoon and I had decided not to attend church at a Church Of God that I was going to at the time. I hear someone driving up the lane and I look out the window to see a convertible sports car coming on up to the house. I go to the door to see this guy that just got out of prison standing on my porch and 3 other guys still in the car. He's looking for my daughter . . .beer on his breath.[:@]
I tell him " Son, you've made two mistakes . . .don't come here without calling first, and nobody comes here period drinking." I was'nt too upset, my daughter was grown and had went to church that evening . .had I have went myself, the following would have never taken place.
After this guy sees that my reception of him was less than favorable, he tells me "well just _ _ _ K _ _ U, and heads out to his car.
My infant son was in the yard riding his tricycle. I shouted to him to get out of the driveway.
Well this guy gets in his car, starts cutting a doughnut in the drive way. His rear end swerves around and hits the tricycle that my son , barely in time bails off of.
I'm in tunnel vision mode now. I grab my shotgun and head to the door. My , then wife, jumps and wraps both arms and legs around the gun, . . .knowing this was going to be bad. So I leave her and the gun on the floor.
I jump in my truck and catch up to them on the highway. They were throwing beer bottles at mailboxes, signs, etc, unaware that I was now behind them. We come up to an intersection close to where I went to church, and the red light caught them.
With out even letting my truck come to a full stop, I jump out (still in my boxer shorts), my truck rams their car , and I jump up in the middle of them in the convertable.
I had a buck knife that was in my truck that I was using the butt of like a club. It was quite a ruckus.
When it was over with, and I started thinking right again I realized that I was standing in the middle of the highway . . .bloody . . .with a knife . . .in nothing but a pair of boxer shorts.[&:]
What was worse . . .church had let out . . .many of my brothers and sisters were now witnessing all of this.[
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The story goes further as you can imagine, but you see enough of it.
This was the last time that I ever lost my cool like that. Believe it or not I was really calling myself seeking the Lord at that time. I kept going to church . . .not in as good of standing as before . . . .I kept reaching for God. I still am.
You probably did'nt make as big a fool out of yourself as I did on that day . . .don't give up, God still loves you.
prayer needed
