I haven't been on this forum in quite sometime. I just logged on and found this thread by Washington Hunter.
I have just recently decided to give up hunting for this very reason. I have considered hanging it up for the last couple seasons.I finally decided to this season.
Why?I just can't bring myself to kill anymore. I've been hunting for over 30 years. I hunted to the point that I felt it was an addiction. I was never a trophy hunter. I hunted to fill tags. My goal each year was to fill every deer tag I had.
For 16 of those 30+ years, I hunted my home state of PA and in West Virginia. I averaged about 7 deer a year for those 16 years. When only hunting PA I'd fill every tag I had.
It was an addiction. During the last few years, I'd walk up to my downed deer and swear to myself,I was done hunting. Yet I'd be out again a few days later hunting again.
I love everything about hunting clear up until I'd walk up to the dead deer. Then I'd feel remorse( or whatever you call it) There were times I have been in tears as I stared at the lifeless body whose life I just ended.
It was kinda like what an alcoholic must feel like when they fall off of the wagon.
Things really took a U-turn about 3 years ago when I had a doe coming to my backyard feeder. She was a wild deer that for some reason trusted me. I could almost pet her. This really made me think about quiting.
Lookingin her trusting eyes at 3feet sure made me feel guilty for killing so many of her kind. She even trusted me enough to bring her fawns close to me. She was killed with a car 2 years ago.
It sure felt weird coming home from a day of hunting and walking out to the feeder to trickle out some corn as she and her fawns stood there waiting. I'd be dressed in my hunting cloths and be standing there with my bow or rifle. I had always worried about them making it through hunting season. I'd get a little anxious if they were late arriving
This year one of the fawns have been hanging around. He is a nice buck ( no pics) has 9 points and a spread about as wide as his ears. He still has a few months to grow. He is kinda tame and will let me approach to about 25yds. I doubt he will last through hunting season. I worry.
I have enjoyed this site for several years and felt I got along with most on here. At times you guys felt like my other family.
I am not against hunting. I know it needs to be done.I've spent so many years defending hunting yet today I find it hard to watch some of the hunting shows on TV. Hearing the laughter and seeing the fist pumping after the shot kinda makes me cringe.
All in all, I just think it was time for me to give it up. I just don't have desire to continue. Just wanted to say so long and God Bless!
About Washington Hunter's thread; Remorse?
